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POSITIVE CREED

2010-10-21T23:30:00.000-07:00

Promise Yourself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature you meet.

To give so much time to improving yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on your side, so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

Recite "The Optimist's Creed" Daily

I Promise Myself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Affirmation

I am so strong that nothing disturbs my peace of mind.

I talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

I make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

I look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

I think only of the best.

I work only for the best.

I expect only the best.

I am enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

I have forgotten the mistakes of the past and I press on to the greater achievements of the future.

I wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

I give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

I am too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

I think well of myself and I proclaim this fact to the world in great deeds.

The whole world is on my side.

I am true to the best that is in me.

Life is beautiful =)

2010-09-22T20:15:00.000-07:00

A lot has been happening. I'm loving everything.

San Beda
I-B
Judge Diy
Atty. V
Tito Jap
Padz
Best
IBM
Team Mates
Recit
RPC
Jen
WYD
Zbejtuh
Diocese
PYM
FOG
Love
Love
More Love
I never imagined LIFE can be this beautiful.

Thank you Jesus for making me happy. Thank you for making LIFE too beautiful.

Law School

2010-07-04T07:05:00.000-07:00

Barely a month.
Enrollment - God's grace.
Working Class
I-B
Jen
Classmates
Judge Diy
Atty. Raymundo, idol.
Dean Ulan
Sir Evert
Fenna and KG
Happy
Books
A lot.
Revised Penal Code
Constitution
Cases
Read
Read
Read
Recit short for recitation
Terrorism grande.
Lowbatt
Recharge
Happy
Happy
Happy
Miss my friends
Miss my friends
Miss.

Kudos to PYM!=)

2009-12-31T22:37:00.000-08:00

St. Peter Parish - Parish Youth Ministry. Para tayong tumatakbo noh? Para tayong sumali ng marathon at tumatakbo. Ang pagkakaiba nga lang, tayo ay hindi nag-unahan, bagkus, sabay sabay na tumatakbo. May ilan ilan na sa ating pagtakbo ay napagod at tumigil na. Ang iba naman ay tumigil upang uminom ng tubig, ngunit tumakbo ulet. Ang iba naman walang pagod na sa kabila ng tagaktak ng pawis, eh patuloy ang pagtakbo.

Para din tayong sumakay ng roller coaster. Sa una, tinatanaw pa lang ang amusement park. Pinapanood bawat isa na nakasakay na. Dahil nakitang masaya, bumili ng ticket at pumila. Kahit gaano kahaba ang pila tiniis para sa pagkakataong makasakay. Matiyagang inantay ang pagkakataon at nang makababa na ang iba, sumigaw ng 'yes, ako naman.' Habang isa isang sumasakay ang iba, hindi mo alam ang iyong mararamdaman. Naeexcite, natatakot, natutuwa. Naghahanda na ng isisigaw. Pagkasakay ay iba't ibang emosyon ang naramdaman. Wala naman nagsabi ng 'ready, set, go!' Sadyang ginulat ka sa bawat pagandar nito. Walang senyas o kahit ano. Sadyang gugulatin ka. So eto ka, nagulat, sumigaw, natuwa, naging proud. Sa wakas, nakasakay ka na ng roller coaster. Tumaas, bumaba, naiyak, nasuka. Ayon, isang roller coaster na masaya naman.

Bagay talaga ang 'kalakbay' na salita para sa bawat isa. Dati nagtataka ako bakit kalakbay ang tawag. Naisip ko pa nga na napaka-corny naman. Pero hindi e. Yuon pala ang swak na salita upang gamitin para i-describe ang bawat isa. Sabi nga ni Pia Montalban, walang nahuhuli at nauuna. Sabay sabay lang tayo. Sinabi pa niya na kahit mas matanda ang isa kaysa isa, pareho tayong natututo sa bawat isa. Dagdag pa rito ay ang mentalidad na ang pagpapalit ng namumuno ay hindi dahil walang saysay ang nasa posisyon bagkus dahil namunga na. Napagandang pagmulatan ng lakas ng loob. Ang karunungan sa likod ng mga salita na ang tunay na pamumuno ay nasa likod ng paglilingkod at pagpapakumbaba.

Isang Pagkakataon para bigyan ng paggalang ang mga dating Youth coordinator tulad nila Diane Monsada, Jeori Fontanilla, at Eden Benitez - sa inyo na pinaghugutan namin ng lakas ng loob, inspirasyon, at karunungan. Isang malaking paggalang sa ilang taon na paghahanda ng daan para sa mga kabataan ng susunod na henerasyon.

Isang pagkakataon din upang bigyan ng pagpupugay ang mga susunod na mga youth coordinator. Sa inyo na handang magtaya ng buhay para sa kinabukasan ng bawat kabataan. Sa inyo na maglilingkod. Sa inyo na isasangtabi ang bawat pangarap para sa ikabubuti ng nakararami.

Sadyang walang katapusan ang pahayag na ito. Patuloy ang paglalakbay...

PYC Regular Meetings

2009-04-12T10:04:00.000-07:00

Regular Meetings:
1st Saturday-Regular Business Meeting (facilitator: rotation of Core Leaders)
Every Sunday-Youth Mass (Facilitator: rotation according to kawan)
Every Third Saturday-Core Leader's Cell Group (Facilitator: rotation of Core Leaders)
Last Saturday every 3 months-Quarterly Evaluation (Facilitator: rotation of kawan youth heads)

Cell Group system in the Youth Ministry

2009-04-12T09:55:00.000-07:00

i'm thinking of doing the cellgroup system in the Youth Ministry of SPP.

The Core group is composed of 21 people.

I will probably hold a cell grouping for the CORE Leaders:
Liza, Marlyn, Marge, Rony, Annalyn, Dan, Cherry, Cat, Liette or whoever seats as the documentation head, Regina, May or whoever seats as the Area Coordinator.
These are about a group of 10 people.
This will be help one a month.
I'll choose a comfortable schedule.

System: Welcome |ice breaker question|, Worship |one prayer and song|, Work |how to improve youth ministry|, Word |reading for the day|

Liza could handle the cell group for the youth heads

The youth heads duplicates the system with their Kawan youth members

The committee heads duplicates the same system with their committee members

This will be the 'alaga' system of the group.

=)

This way, coordinating won't be hard for all of us.

My Blank Canvas (Inspired By Jen Soriano and Doug Fields)

2009-04-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

When I started my Parish Youth Ministry journey, I brought with me a blank canvas.
It was early in June that I started bringing this blank canvas to St. Peter Parish.
A very intriguing text from Fr. Tony regarding an emergency meeting with him.
Fr. Tony asking me if I am willing to be St. Peter's Youth Coordinator.
June, first week, meeting with PYM, elected Youth Coordinator.

I noticed by blank canvas has a little sprinkle of yellow.
It was a blank canvas, why does it have a sprinkle of yellow?
I put a name tag on it so people will know that it is mine.
I even put my kawan's name 'Old Balara' on it for distinction.

1st Meeting agreed about the concert.
SPP delegation to Australia.
Came August, cramming for the concert.
Practices-Meetings-Practices-Meetings.
Practices-Teambuildings-Solicitations-Tickets-Tarps-50-500-1000.

Where is my blank canvas?
I cannot see it anymore.
I was trying to look for it everywhere.
No one knows where it is.
I asked Liza, "where is my canvas?"
There it is, she said.
But this is not mine, it has my name on it but my kawan's name 'Old Balara' is not on it anymore. It has a lot of sprinkles.

Concert success.
Parish Youth United.
Team buildings
Leadership Trainings
Plannings.
Plannings.
Budgeting.
Panunuluyan.
Medical Missions.
Gift givings.
Alay Pasko kay lolo at lola.
Alay Pasko sa mga bata.
Youth Tasking Day.
Parish Youth Day.
Skills Training.
Cultural Show.
Stations of the Cross.
Ushering activities.
Meetings-Fellowships
With all I am-Heart of Worship

I suddenly noticed that my blank canvas isn't blank anymore.
It has many colors on it.
Black, white, rainbow.
I didn't put color on it alone.

Liza: I'll sprinkle it with my listening ears and wisdom to share.
Regina: I made fun and uplifting strokes.
Marge: I'll just back you up all through the way
Rony: I'll decorate it with some cheers
Shernan: I'll put laughter on it
Marlyn: I'll share my dancing and singing skills
Diane: I'll put good ideas on it
Cat: Can I decorate it with smiles and a helping hand?
Sarah: I am here, what can I do?
Lala: I'll follow whatever you guys will do
Rose Ann: I can sing...
Ma. Anne: I can sing and dance too!
Liette: I can also share my talents.
Anthony: haha... I have with me my Feria team to back you up!
Thea: I can help!
Jollibee: me too!!!
May: What else can I do?
Lloyd: I'll put some prayer strokes on it!
Cherry: I'll draw some smiles too!
Marga: Oh, me too!
Chito: Here's a dance for you guys!
Gerry: I may be quiet, but I'm here to cheer!
Jayson: hahaha... I'll put some laughter too!
Jeane: I'll paint it together with other youth volunteers from Sto. Nino!
Maki: I have Dupax boys to back you up!
Fr. Tony: God is always with us in every step of the way, we can do this! We can serve him and be of help to our fellow men! Come, paint this beautiful masterpiece with us!

God: Now, my masterpiece is not yet done. Come join and let me finish it with LOVE!

We are calling you to be a YOUTH VOLUNTEER!

Ten things a great small group leader does for the youth ...

2009-04-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

Copied from Dough Fields
Ten things a great small group leader does for youth...

Another caring adult is cheering them on.
Encouragement to grow spiritually on their own.
Support during difficult times in their life.
Presence at their sporting events.
Someone who is excited to see them at church.
Someone they are excited to see when they arrive at church.
Someone who leaves them voice messages "just because I was thinking of you."
A caring adult who doesn't freak-out over bad grades--they're capable of being neutral.
Someone who is a "safe" person to talk to.
A person who is tender, yet truthful when my kids need a little correcting.

Easter Sunday Reflection

2008-04-25T06:49:00.000-07:00

On the third day, Jesus rose from the dead. I didn't imagine that I'll be able to put away my mask and reveal who truly I am. At different situations, I pretend to be somebody. I try to escape from the reality of who truly I am today.

Since the fall of our business, I needed to adjust to a new lifestyle. I don't go home to a big house anymore. I don't have maids to do the chores for me or even get me a glass of water. I don't have people to run errands for me.

Before, I used to be so proud of myself since I know that my dad is one of the richest in our clan and in the neighborhood. But after the bankruptcy, everybody witnessed how we went down.

But after all, that fall became my motivation to be a better person right now. That fall motivated me to study harder and be the best in every situation. That fall taught me to be a grateful person.

I used to be a brat. I had everything I wanted. I was never deprived of the things that I liked. I was used to instants --- because all i have to do is utter what i need and like a genie everything i wished for are all in front of me.

Sometimes I miss the life that I used to live. Sometimes, I reminisce about those good times that I was on top. But being on top is nothing without God.

Now I graduated from College and with this armor, I could battle through life's adversities. Amidst all, one thing will remain constant. There is a loving God who through all my ups and downs, never abandoned me and continues to love me despite everything.

May this Easter be a reminder for me to strive to be the best that I can be and live my life being a good example of God's love and providence.

10 Secrets to Fulfilling Relationships

2008-03-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

10 Secrets to Fulfilling Relationships

The first secret? the power of THOUGHT.
Love begins with our thoughts. We become what
we think about. Loving thoughts create loving
experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations
can change our beliefs and thoughts about
ourselves and others. If we want to love someone,
we need to consider their needs and desires.

The second secret? the power of GIVING.
If you want to receive love, all you have to do is
give it! The more love you give, the more you will
receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and
unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness.
Before committing to a relationship, ask not what
the other person will be able to give to you, but
rather what will you be able to give them. The
secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving
relationship is to always focus on what you can
give instead of what you can take.

The third secret? the power of RESPECT.
You cannot love anyone or anything unless you
first
respect them. The first person you need to
respect
is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask
yourself, "What do I respect about myself?" To
gain respect for others, even those you may
dislike, ask yourself "What do I respect about
them?"

The fourth secret? the power of FRIENDSHIP.
To find a true love, you must first find a true friend.
Love does not consist of gazing into each other's
eyes, but rather looking outward together in the
same direction. To love someone completely you
must love them for who they are, not what they
look
like. Friendship is the soil through which love's
seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a
relationship, you must first bring friendship.

The fifth secret? the power of LETTING GO.
If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to
you, it's yours; if it doesn't, it never was. Even in a
loving relationship, people need their own space.
If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to
forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances.
Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices,
egos and conditions. "Today I let go of all my
fears, the past has no power over me - today is
the beginning of a new life."

The sixth secret? the power of COMMUNICATION.
When we learn to communicate openly and
honestly, life changes. To love someone is to
communicate with them. Let the people you love
know that you love them and appreciate them.
Never be afraid to say those three magic words: "I
Love You." Never let an opportunity pass to praise
someone. Always leave someone you love with a
loving word - it could be the last time you see
them! If you were about to die but could make
telephone calls to the people you loved, who
would
you call, what would you say and ... why are you
waiting?

The seventh secret? the power of COMMITMENT.
If you want to have love in abundance, you must
be
committed to it, and that commitment will be
reflected in your thoughts and actions.
Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to
have loving relationships, you must be committed
to loving relationships. When you are committed
to
someone or something, quitting is never an
option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile
relationship from a strong one.

The eighth secret? the power of PASSION.
Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting
passion does not come through physical
attraction
alone, it comes from deep commitment,
enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can
be recreated by recreating past experiences
when
you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises
produce passion. The essence of love and
happiness are the same; all we need to do is to
live each day with passion.

The ninth secret? the power of TOUCH.
Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of
love, breaking down barriers and bonding
relationships. Touch changes our physical and
emotional states and makes us more receptive to
love.

The tenth secret? the power of TRUST.
Trust is essential in all loving relationships.
Without it, one person becomes suspicious,
anxious and fearful and the other person feels
trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot
love someone completely unless you trust them
completely. Act as if your relationship with the
person you love will never end. One of the ways
you can tell whether a person is right for you is to
ask yourself, "Do I trust them completely and
unreservedly?" If the answer is "no", think carefully
before making a commitment.

♥Thinking about being...♥

2008-03-11T23:21:00.000-07:00

Saturday, March 12, 2005
Yep!
Single!

♥It's exactly three years since I wrote this blog post. For the record, I haven't been in love for a long time. Oh Come on! Alright.. I'm lying.. hahaha.. I've been in love a lot of times since then. Some say its not love but just infatuation. Whatever it is, I know myself better than they do. But I haven't been in a relationship for so long. I had my last relationship three years ago. Relationship? Yes... a real one. hahaha... Why a real one? Because I've been in not-that-real-relatiosnhips. hahaha.. It may be happy but its not fulfilling... (wag kang fulfilling)I'll be lying if I'll say that I don't long to be in a relatiosnhip. But, I'm willing to wait... wait for the right man to come along.

Right now, there's someone out there. But I don't know if he's real. I'll just wait for his move. Like what he said. :) Love is just around. I can feel it. Its just waiting for the right time. ♥

I miss my IBM so much!!!

2007-11-15T01:34:00.001-08:00

Cess blogged about missing IBM... I miss IBM too!!!

MY floor mates.... Trainees at the Recruitment Team

CAT "Hi this is Cat from IBM Business Servicess..."

CESS "Hello, I'm looking for... "

VAL Barney is looking with his oversize pants... joke..

I miss my other OJT mates...

hehe... to be continued..

I miss my blog

2007-11-15T01:34:00.000-08:00

It's been so long since I last visited my blog.

My New Frienster Profile

2007-11-15T01:29:00.000-08:00

[purplefreakgirl♥]
i'm addicted to the color purple.ever since i was in grade school i've been obssesed with purple things.i was a total purple endorser.you know what i mean! yup.wearing purple clothes, accesories, school things, etc.it all started when i had a good friend whose alias is viosmile. she is addicted to the color violet.back then we belong to 6- Lila.talking about it.our grade six sections influenced us a lot.ask a knoller!

[I'm a minor no more♥]
being able to do stuffs you've never done before, legal for marriage, having suitors, having a boyfriend, being allowed to go on gimmicks, going home late without worrying about sermons, learning to be independent,and the like...but i choose not to rebel.. i'm way like 16...haha

[i love ♥ to eat]
i don't want to deprive myself just to please others.

[i'm living a clean life ♥]
i don't have any vice... i don't smoke weeds or cigars, i don't drink alcohol, i don't take drugs...but if you're into such things, i'm not saying you're living a dirty life.

[i love ♥ being a girl]
isn't it fun to be one?

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What happened to Lindasy Lohan?

2007-07-27T23:17:00.000-07:00

BIOGRAPHY

1989 An Early Start
Ford Modeling Agency signs on 3-year-old Lohan. She appears in more than 60 commercials, including spots for Pizza Hut, Wendy's and Jell-O, with Bill Cosby. She also models for Abercrombie & Fitch Kids and Calvin Klein Kids. In 1996, she lands a TV role as Alli Fowler in the soap opera Another World and plays the character for a year.

1998 Lindsay: Double-Time
July 20
Lohan plays identical twins Hallie and Annie in Disney's The Parent Trap, earning her a Young Actress Award for Best Leading Actress in a Feature Film. Director Nancy Meyers likens Lohan to a young Diane Keaton, an actress "gifted as a comedian but who doesn't know it." Lohan signs a three-movie contract with Disney. Next, she stars in Disney's Life Size with Tyra Banks and Get a Clue.

2002 January Teen Queens Clash
Lohan dates singer Aaron Carter, prompting reports of tension between her and fellow teen queen H ilary Duff, Carter's on-and-off again girlfriend who dated him prior to Lohan. Both actresses deny any beef, with Duff telling PEOPLE in 2005: "I have nothing to say about [the spat]. I don't even know her."

September Becoming an Actress-Singer
Following her dream of becoming a singer, Lohan signs a five-album production deal with Grammy award-winning producer Emilio Estefan. Two years later, Lohan signs a recording contract with Tommy Mottola's Casablanca Records. Mottola, who was the driving force behind Mariah Carey and Jennifer Lopez's music careers, says to PEOPLE, "She is like rapid-fire – really quick, really smart."

2002 August 04 Lohan Gets Freaky
After a five-year delay, Freaky Friday with Lohan and Jamie Lee Curtis is released. Lohan plays a teen who switches bodies with her mom. She also contributes to the movie soundtrack. It rakes in more than $110 million and Lohan wins the MTV Movie Award for Best Breakthrough Female.

2004 April 19 Mean Girls

The high school flick Mean Girls starring Lohan and Rachel McAd ams scoops up $86 million at the box office. The film, written by 30 Rock and former SNL star Tina Fey, pushes Lohan into the spotlight and confirms her as a bankable star. PEOPLE names the stunning redhead in its 50 Most Beautiful issue.

May Lohan's 'First Love'
Lohan, 17, reveals to PEOPLE the reason why she's currently single: "It's because I'm 17 and I like 24-year-olds – and that's illegal." But, Lohan soon finds herself a dateable 24-year-old, stepping out with That '70s Show star Wilmer Valderrama. Lohan's mom, Dina, later calls Valderrama her daughter's "first love." In November, just weeks after Lohan makes a cameo appearance on Valderrama's That '70s Show, reps confirm the two have b roken up. "It had to do with their careers," a friend of Valderrama's tells PEOPLE.

May 31 Blowing Up
Lohan's partying isn't the only tabloid-grabbing item; the teen star's curvier figure is also under the media's watch. Reports surface that Lohan has had breast implants. "It's retarded," says Lohan of the notion that she had plastic surgery. "I'm 17 years old. My mother would never let me." Still, the actress admits that she's flattered: "I'm glad people think I have a nice chest." When Lohan hosts Saturday Night Live for the first time that month (she hosts again in 2005 and 2006), she makes light of her suddenly large chest.

December 07 Singing Sensation
Lohan releases her first album, Speak, which goes platinum. Her single "Rumors," about a teen celebrity trying to keep her private life out of the spotlight, goes gold.

2005 April The Incredible Shrinking Actress
Lohan's noticeably thinner frame attracts press scrutiny, but she attributes her weight loss to a new workout regimen. "There's a lot of pressure [to be thin]," she tells Access Hollywood. In 2007, once her curvier figure returns, she tells Allure, "When I lost weight, everything reduced and changed. Then I gained weight again, and I was like, Wow, the breasts are really back."
May 07 Family Friction
Lohan's dad, Michael, is sentenced to a maximum of four years for a DUI and beating his brother-in-law. Five months later, Lohan releases a music video, "Confessions of a Broken Heart (Daughter to Father)," which addresses her parents' volatile marriage and stars her 11-year-old sister Aliana. While in prison, Michael writes an open letter to the New York Daily News and includes a cartoon depicting his troubled relationship with Lohan. "Lindsay is a talented, loving, blessed and free-spirited person," Michael writes. "I believe nothing I read about her unless I hear it from Lindsay herself. And she's always been honest with me." He is released on March 13, 2007 after serving less than two years.
November My So-Called Boyfriend
Lohan and Jared Leto, her costar in the movie Chapter 27, are spotted together at various Hollywood hot spots. But Lohan denies any relationship, telling PEOPLE, "I focus on my career, not boys." In 2007, she reiterates her stance to Allure, "I never had a relationship with Jared. Swear to God, never did. Also, I never had a relationship with Bruce Willis. We're friends."

2006 January 04 Bulimia or Bull
Lohan poses for the cover of Vanity Fair, which reports that the actress has admitted to having bulimia and taking drugs in the past. Lohan refutes these claims, but the magazine stands by its report. Two days before the article comes out, Lohan is hospitalized in Miami for an asthma attack.
May 25 Paris, Lindsay Feud Over Man

Lohan is spotted smooching Stavros Niarchos, Paris Hilton's ex-boyfriend, at New York City hot spot Butter. The two are seen together over the next few days, and Hilton makes her dislike for former friend Lohan known by giggling as pal Brandon Davis badmouths Lohan in video footage captured by TMZ.com.

July When Harry Met Lindsay
Lohan begins dating Harry Morton, owner of the restaurant chain Pink Taco and son of former Hard Rock Cafe chain owner Peter Morton. The two are inseparable, party-hopping and lounging at his Malibu pad, but after three months of dating, they take a break. A friend of Morton's tells PEOPLE that he is sick of her partying ways and that "she was too much drama."

July 26 Professional Scolding
Lohan, who was previously hospitalized for exhaustion in 2004, shutting down production of Herbie: Fully Loaded, is once again briefly hospitalized for exhaustion and dehydration, causing her to miss work on the set of Georgia Rule. The movie's producer, James G. Robinson, sends her a memo that states, "We are well aware that your partying is the real reason for your so-called exhaustion." Lohan's mother Dina calls the letter's wording "ridiculous" on Access Hollywood, but Lohan returns to the set without incident.

December 01 Alcoholics (Not So) Anonymous
Lohan's rep tells PEOPLE that the young starlet has been attending Alcoholics Anonymous. The confirmation comes a week after mom Dina answered yes when asked by E!'s Ryan Seacrest if her daughter was in AA. Both her rep and mother reaffirmed that this was a "positive" move on Lohan's behalf.

2007 January 17 Lohan Goes to Rehab
Lohan checks into rehab at Wonderland Center in L.A., halting production on the thriller I Know Who Killed Me. "I have made a proactive decision to take care of my personal health," Lohan says in a statement. The busy actress also backs out of an upcoming movie in order to focus on her rehabilitation. Later that month, she returns to work on the I Know set, in which she plays a stripper tortured by a serial killer.

May 10 Work & Play
The night before the premiere of her latest film, Georgia Rule, starring Oscar-nominated actress Felicity Huffman and screen legend Jane Fonda, Lohan, 20, steps out with new beau, British TV personality Calum Best, 26. That weekend, the new couple cozies up in the Bahamas and catch a Janet Jackson concert. Lohan tells PEOPLE, "He's a nice guy."

May 29 Lindsay Goes Back to Rehab
Lohan returns to rehab, spawning a PEOPLE cover story chronicling her downfall. Three days earlier, she crashed her Mercedes and was cited for driving under the influence. Police found a substance tentatively identified as "a usable amount of cocaine" in connection with the accident. Britain's News of the World recently reported that Lohan allegedly had a "marathon cocaine binge" after her first trip to rehab.

July 19 Lohan Arrested for DUI – Again
Lohan is arrested on suspicion of drunk driving in Santa Monica, Calif. The 21-year-old, who had cocaine in her possession while wearing an alcohol detection anklet, is booked for DUI, possession of cocaine, transporting a narcotic into a custody facility and driving on a suspended license. The arrest comes 11 days after she completed a 45-day rehab stint, and five days after she surrendered and was formally booked on misdemeanor charges stemming from a May car crash.

Lindsay Lohan. What now?

2007-07-24T19:03:00.001-07:00

Less than two weeks out of rehab, Lindsay Lohan relapsed shortly before her arrest and is now "receiving medical care," her lawyer said Tuesday.

"Addiction is a terrible and vicious disease," attorney Blair Berk said in a statement.

Since leaving Promises rehab facility on July 13, Lohan has been wearing an electronic alcohol-monitoring bracelet on her ankle. She had it on even as she hit parties and nightclubs in Los Angeles and Las Vegas. However, police say the device did not play any role in notifying police that she was allegedly driving under the influence on Tuesday.

"Throughout this period, I have received timely and accurate reports from the testing companies," says Berk. "Unfortunately, late [Monday] I was informed that Lindsay had relapsed. The bracelet has now been removed. She is safe, out of custody and presently receiving medical care."

The actress, 21, was booked early Tuesday morning for DUI, possession of cocaine, transporting a narcotic into a custody facility and driving on a suspended license, according to Santa Monica police spokesman Lt. Alex Padilla.

Officers smelled alcohol on Lohan's breath when they first arrived on the scene Tuesday. She refused to submit to a preliminary blood alcohol test, so she was arrested and taken to the local police station, added Padilla.

Lohan's attorney posted the $25,000 bail required to have the actress released from jail at approximately 6:30 a.m. Her arraignment was set for Aug. 24.

Reached by PEOPLE, the star's father, Michael Lohan, said he's "heartbroken" by his daughter's arrest.

NEW YORK - Gisele Bundchen tops Forbes.com's list of the world's richest models, earning $33 million in the last 12 months

2007-07-19T18:16:00.000-07:00

The Brazilian supermodel strutted past the likes of Kate Moss, who came in at No.2, and Heidi Klum, who placed third on the list.

Bundchen, 26, parted ways with Victoria's Secret in May and will see her lucrative contract with the lingerie brand expire at the end of the year.

Still, she boasts "more contracts than any other model on the planet," Forbes.com said, and has appeared in campaigns for high-end brands including Apple, Dolce & Gabbana and Roberto Cavalli.

Moss, who recently launched a clothing line at British fashion retailer Topshop, ranks second with $9 million. The 33-year-old fashion icon is the new face of fashion label Stella McCartney and Italian sportswear company Belstaff.

Klum, 34, placed third with $8 million. She is a Victoria's Secret spokesmodel and host of Bravo's "Project Runway."

Two more Victoria's Secret beauties — Adriana Lima and Alessandra Ambrosio — rounded out the top five with $6 million each.

They were followed by Carolyn Murphy ($5 million); Natalia Vodianova ($4.5 million); Karolina Kurkova and Daria Werbowy (both $3.5 million); Gemma Ward ($3 million); Liya Kebede ($2.5 million); Hilary Rhoda and Shalom Harlow (both $2 million); and Doutzen Kroes and Jessica Stam (both $1.5 million).

In ranking these catwalkers, Forbes.com said editors also factored in a model's "relevancy" — determined by recent campaigns, fashion magazine covers and opinions of those in the fashion industry — where necessary. The list was posted Monday on the Web site.

For a complete version visit this link.

New Blog

2007-07-08T03:09:00.000-07:00

Hi try to visit my new blog: http://candidjocosity.blogspot.com

Thanks! :)

What's Your Sense of Humor?

2007-05-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

Rosselle, your sense of humor is Sarcasm Oh yeah, you're really funny. (Actually you are, but you're so sarcastic that it's hard to tell when you're joking.) You mean what you say, but almost never say exactly what you mean. In fact you usually say the exact opposite. For instance, if your friend is wearing an ugly watch, you might tell them, "I wanted a watch like that once, but I got the wrong Happy Meal." Yep, there's a slight edge to your humor, but all you are really doing is telling it like it is, only like it's not.

Whether you're roasting a friend or playing social critic, your deadpan delivery and dry cynicism go a long way to expressing your true feelings...and making people laugh along the way.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/humor/?c=42667&test=humorogt

What Kind of Girlfriend am I?

2007-05-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

Rosselle, you're a Steady Supporter Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.

For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/girlfriend/index.jsp

OJT thingy

2007-05-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

Basically what do I do here at IBM?

Con, the former ojt handed me over all of her works. Thank God, she wrote down some reminders for me to know everything that I am suppose to do.

Basically, I'm in charge of calling applicants for the pre-employment exam. From a bunch of resumes, I get one, screen it first,

if after graduation, work experience is beyond 18 months - considered Expro

if after graduation, work experience is below 18 months - considered Fresh Graduate

My task doesn't end there...

During the first few weeks, I call out Expros for their interviews.. I schedule them for my boss. Then at the end of the day I hand the list of the people I scheduled to my boss.

Multitasking1: I call out applicants for the pre-employment exam.

My spiel:

Rosel: Hi Good Morning! This is Rosel of IBM Business Services, I'm looking for
________.
Applicant: This is she.
Rosel: Oh! Hi _________! I would like to ask if anybody from our company has contacted you before?
Applicant: None
Rosel: So are you still interested in pursuing your application here at IBS?
Applicant: Yes..very much
Rosel: So Can I invite for the pre-employment exam tom. at 10am, are you available?
Applicant: Okay
Rosel: Do you have a pen and a paper so you can jot down the details?
Applicant: Yes
Rosel: Again, your examination is tomorrow at 10 am..Our office is located at the 7th floor 1800 bldg., eastwood city, libis. Don't forget to bring an updated copy of your resume and please look for Jenny Espinosa.Okay?
Applicant: Okay
Rosel: Do you have any questions?
Applicant: None so far
Rosel: Okay so we'll be expecting you tomorrow, okay?
Applicant: Okay
Rosel: Thank you and bye

Haha! Okay, sobrang narereverberate 'tong spiel ko. :) haha!

Nice quote! Love Quote!

2007-05-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

trip mode:) smile

2007-05-09T21:36:00.000-07:00

Summer with Roxy

2007-05-09T21:33:00.000-07:00

dwrowning? Or just enjoying the water
J-ann.paswimming ka naman!

Blogito Ergo Sum

2007-05-09T01:08:00.000-07:00

Just happy to say that there are t-shirt for sale with the line "blogito ergo sum" meaning I blog therefore I am.

Haha...

Lunch Time OJT Time Ha! :)

2007-05-03T02:55:00.000-07:00

IBM is the ultimate place for me. I really enjoy my ojt here. Not just because of the free lunch during my first day at work.

Okay, talking about the free lunch, I didn't expect that there is a resto here at eastwood that is inexpensive. Frankly speaking, I thought that during my 200 hours stay here, I'll be eating Mc Donalds, Jollibee and KFC alternatley. Good thing, the old ojt's introduced me to the inexpensive resto Benissimo and the hepa lane which is along the bridge.

Okay, cafe Benissimo being inexpensive. I am not that familiar with Benissimo. I often come to Eastwood but my friends and I often stay at Jack's Loft. If I'm with the family, we stay at Something Fishy especialld during breakfast time because we often take advantage of the eat all you can breakfast which is only for 80 pesos. But now, it has increased to 89.. It's actually without drinks. Ha! I'm advertising already. Anyway, I'll bet you'll enjoy it.

Back to Benissimo okay, lunch time meal costs 54.00. Okay, don't be shocked.. Calm down... Okay Breathe in Breathe out.. In hale Exhale.. It's not a typo error.. it's absolutely for real. and oh so yes, the lunch includes a glass of iced tead... The first time I ate there, the food was tinolang manok and bicol express you can choose between the two. Guess what I chose? tinolang manok.. sarap! and it comes with patis and sili (fish sauce and red pepper) grabe.. It feels like I'm still at home.. Lutong bahay indeed! :)

So, where is it located... it's just inside eastwood.. it's for you to find out.. Hahahaha!!!:)

Next issue: The other inexpensive resto or places to eat at eastwood...

Abangan!

OJT - 1st day

2007-04-14T02:35:00.000-07:00

Okay... before i start it all... the over all feeling is overwhelming.

To begin with Tuesday, April 3, 2007

I received an anonymous call.... but I wasn't able to answer it. Call time:7:40PM
Could it be IBM? I assume... I saved the number and named it IBM.

Came Wednesday, April 4, 2007
I called IBM to follow up my application for OJT (On-the-job-training). What happened? I spoke to a girl and she told me that she'll check my status and call me back.

The next day
I wasn't expecting a call. Absolutely because it's Holy Thursday - and obviously it's a holiday - meaning all the offices are close. So, I told myself that I'll be waiting until next week.

Came Monday, another national holiday in the Philippines.

Came Tuesday, I decided to follow-up again. I dialled the seven digit number and I pressed O to be able to talk to the operator. I told her that I am an OJT applicant. She transferred the call.. and poof! After, a few seconds, I spoke to a girl and gave her my name and my school. She then transferred me to CJ. When I spoke to CJ, He told me that he'll check my status and call me back.

During the night at around 7PM, my phone was ringing.... tenenenten ten ten....

IBM calling...

So, the mysterious caller again... Could it be true... my assumption?

So the voice said.. He's from IBM... So he asked me several questions...
What's your course?
>I replied, BS BUSIness Ad major in E-Commerce.
So what job do you want?
>I said, OJT sir.
He said, no what department would you like?
>I said, IT sir.
He said, what do you do with your course...
>I said, I know adobe photoshop, gimp photoshop, audacity sound editor, html basics...
What else?
>Accounting subjects, BOM and other courses related to that..
He said, when can you start?
>I said, tomorrow...
So he gave me the details...

Came wednesday.. I went there and I was expecting an interview...

I entered 30 minutes earlier.... I was about to meet the very know/popular/Is he a boy or a girl Christian JOY.... So...... He went out he got my resume and after 30 minutes he asked me to follow him... in a room... very cold room... and he asked me to sign the contract... He's a girl... hehehe!

So there... to be continued...

Butterfly Kisses

2007-03-14T02:43:00.000-07:00

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven, and she's Daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all...

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today
She's looking like her Mama, a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world, but I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time.
With all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time, oh, like the wind the years go by.
Precious butterfly, spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today, she'll make a promise, and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bridegroom just staring at her
She asks me what I'm thinking, and I said I'm not sure.
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl, and she leaned over...

Gave me butterfly kisses with her Mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time.
Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy? Daddy, don't cry.
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right.

To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses,
I couldn't ask God for more, than this is what love is.
I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember...
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses.

Touching...very

Daddy's Little Girl

2007-03-14T02:26:00.000-07:00

I dedicate this to all the girls out there...

Check out this entry at J-ann's blog. I'm really sad about this.

Daddy take me with you
I promise I'll be good
Daddy, this is next time
And momma said I could.

Sitting in the front seat riding down town
An ice cream cone
I'd wrap him around my little finger
Tighter then my baby could
You can make a tear go a long long way
When you're daddy's little girl.

Well he tightened my bike chain from 7 to 13
Taught me to drive when I was a wild thing
Reached and he prayed while I made some mistakes
That I wouldn't have made if I'd have done it his way.

Now he hugs me when he sees me
We talk about the past
He tries to give me money
And I try and give it back.

He's a book of advice
More then I need
The look in his eyes is saying to me
Let me help you all I can
While I'm still in this world
What will you do when you're daddy's gone
And you're daddy's little girl.

So Sick Comparison

2007-03-14T01:40:00.000-07:00

So Sick (Female Version)

i gotta change the station that i have
cause all i hear is you
it jus keeps reminding me
of all the thingz we used to do
and i know that i should turn
off the radio
but it's the only place i hear your voice anymore

(it'z rediculous)
it'z been months since I've spoken to u
(you aint keep in touch)
dont know why it came to this no
(but enough is enough)
no more walkin round wit ma head down
i dont wanna be a fool
cryin over you

(Chorus)
if your so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
you said you loved me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songs
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio

gotta fix that calendar i have
that'z marked july 16th
cause it seemz like you forgot
that waz our annaversary
when i heard your song it
made it hard to erase your memory
now when i heard ur songs i noe it's best for me
i cant believe that your

so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
you said u loved me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songs
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio

oOh
(now that im gone)
now that im gone
(i wanna be left alone)
Ooh
and everytime i see your smile
it'z lookin at our child
you shood noe
Ooh y cant you move on?

(Chorus)
if your so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
you said u loved me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songs
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio
(i just cant turn off the radio)

if your so sick of love songz (so sick of love songz)
so tired of tears (so tired of tears)
you said u loved me
why aint you here (yeaaaah) (y aint you here???)
im so sick of your love songz
so sad and slo (oo oh)
but i just cant turn off the radio
(i just cant turn off the radio)

(Chorus)
if your so sick of love songz
so tired of tears
you said u loved me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songz
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio
(i jus cant turn off the radio)
i just cant turn off the radio

---------------------------------------------

Neyo

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Closer and Closer Look: Smaller and smaller Circles by: F.H. Batacan

2007-03-12T22:03:00.000-07:00

Smaller and Smaller Circles. My first impression with the title was that this is something like those Bob Ong’s which uses very plain language. Or if not, it’s just like the usual Mga Ibong Mandaragit or Florante at Laura and the like. The reason behind these impressions was that back in high school, I was exposed to those kinds of Philippine literature. Nevertheless, my guesses were all wrong.

Smaller and Smaller Circles. Wasn’t like the normal “laughter therapy” or comedic novels by Bob Ong which may be used by high school students for their book report (even grade school). I came to realize that now I’m in College, book reports are in a different level – more matured and realistic. But on the other hand, it’s not also like the typical/normal Philippine literature with very deep language. Smaller and Smaller Circles is very easy to comprehend and the ideas are flowing in a good manner.

The question, “Is it realistic or fantastic?” struck me for a moment. I know in my heart the definition of a fantastic and a realistic. But at the start of the novel, I was thinking twice. I even looked up the definition of the two words. But as I ponder, it echoes in my mind. It’s a realistic novel. It’s a realistic novel. It’s a realist.

It can happen in reality. It’s even happening now. Serial killers are on the streets. The Payatas area – the mountain of garbage, the smell of the dump, Riverside, Litex, the junction along Tandang Sora and Commonwealth across Old Balara, and the Jesuit’s house. The setting seems so vivid. It seems so clear for me because I live by Old Balara. That is why the idea that it is a realist novel seems to echo and seems to be very clear.

I am asking myself if it’s fantastic. Is there psychic automism? Is there something out of this world? Is it something of magic, of vampire slayers, of lost souls? No. There is nothing magical. It even points out the psychological reason behind the killings of the serial killer.

Smaller and Smaller Circles. Realist. Now what comes next? What specific literary genre does it fall under? The whole story revolves around the killings, the killer and the mystery solvers.
The novel depicts the Filipino police doesn’t acknowledge the killings to be done by a serial killer. But the two priests, Fr. Gus Saenz, a known forensics anthropologist and Fr. Jerome Lucero, a clinical psychologist, strongly believes that the killings are all done in a sort of sequential and organized manner. Every first Saturday of the month, victims, being children between twelve to fourteen, of small size, are seen face scraped off, genitals mutilated and heart extracted.
At first, you may think that it’s a sort of a ritual done by some cult or it’s something done by the “aswang” or “mananangal”. A vampire in the Payatas area? Fantastic, I say.

But this novel is not fantastic as I say. It even echoes in my mind that it’s a realist. So, who in the right and humanly mind would dare to do such thing? This made me conclude that this novel is a mystery. So here comes a very refreshing type of Filipino novel – sort of like CSI.
So, the two Jesuit priests being exposed in “real” criminal situations, happen to conclude that there is a serial killer. The format of the story goes like this: First, the body is found hours after the killing. Then the police and forensic experts are trying to investigate and search the crime scene. Then the two priests analyzing the situation with the help of Joanna, a reporter and some laboratory professionals, medical people and government officials who have access over confidential records. Next is having a suspect as well as studying him, knowing his background as well as knowing if he has a “hidden” traumatic childhood which would cause him to do such morbid act. Next is attesting to the findings that the suspect is really the murderer. Followed by a search to catch the murderer. Then like the usual detective type of movie, police and people in charge having a hard time to catch the suspect, and ending up to the death of the suspect itself.

As aforementioned, the two priests made a study about the suspect who is Alex Carlos and they found out that there is a reason behind the killings. Alex is a dentist in the mobile clinic which goes to Payatas to perform medical and dental services to the poor. He uses the circumstance to perform his revenge. His anger can be traced back in high school. Father Gus and Father Saenz found out that he was once a student of the Payatas high. Being lean and sickly due to some sort of poverty, he had very low grades in PE. So his PE teacher would often ask him to stay a while for some further things to do.The PE teacher took advantage and may be because he was gay, he abused Alex. So, knowing the fact that he was molested, the PE teacher made him the “favorite”. Being not able to tell his parents about this and being not able to tell anyone at all, he grew up having psychological incapabilities. As a way of revenge, he killed the teacher. But he is still not satisfied. He decides to kill kids and his out to kill seven. Why seven? Because when the molestation was happening, there are around eight of them and he being the special one. He didn’t want to be the special one. He just wanted to be normal – like the other seven. He felt that he is being looked at – the center of abuse. He does the killing in some sort of a ritual - face scraped off, genital mutilated and heart extracted. In this case, he does this to remove the identity of the person much like what happened to him.

Reading the book attests to the fact that F.H. Batacan is really good at writing. From the very idea of diverting from the usual and making the usual extraordinary, I applaud her for that. Next is the use of French, Italian and I think even German. She may have known several languages and this technique created more impact on the characters.

Smaller and Smaller Circles. Realistic. Detective Suspense.

The most dominant element in the novel as it is screaming from cover to cover is the conflict, man versus man. The whole story revolves around the conflict, who is the killer?
The story started seeing a dead kid in the dump and Forensic anthropologists investigating. The whole story revolves in identifying the “mystery” killer. Characters sprung from the main conquest. Police officers in the crime scene. Ben Arcinas and his fellow NBI agents investigating. Joanna and Leo being a team up of reporter and cameraman waiting for news to cover. The two priests unraveling the whole gist of the story. Finally, knowing that it was Alex Santos and the climax was during the capture at the mobile wherein Father Saenz was even injured. In the end, I thought Father Saenz was killed but the craft of the story was great that it was Carlos who got killed. That was what I’ve wanted. The way it was narrated in the second to the last chapter, it seems that Fr. Saenz was the one killed. That is also a typical story which ends up beating evil and the bad people dying or asking for forgiveness.

At first I cannot understand the point of the italicized fonts (phrases sort of a dialogue) at certain last page of certain chapters. But as the story is coming to an end, I came to realize that it was Alex Carlos speaking. It was like the real gist, smaller and smaller circles.

The monologues leads me to say that there is another conflict revolving which is man versus himself. Because he is no longer in his proper mind, some sort of psychological incapabilities or nervous breakdown. The italicized part or what I call the monologue, is some sort of a diary. The author is trying to let the readers know the feelings of Alex which I only happen to realize by the end of the novel. (slow..me) So I tried to recall the monologue parts and I even read again those parts so I can fully comprehend the whole story. After which, I finally concluded that there is indeed a man versus himself conflict.

I thought of some possible themes of the story. Actually to tell you frankly, I sort of have some difficulties trying to know this part. I even listed down several possible themes:
Childhood of a person can make a big impact on him

There is truth about serial killers
Behind every murder is anger
The difficulty of solving crimes
Solving crimes
Serial killings

Smaller and Smaller Circles. Realistic. Detective – Suspense. Serial

Killings. I’ve read Nancy Drew when I was in grade school. I even got hitched to it. It has certain similarities. But this novel is more direct to the point. The novel flows to the direction of capturing the murderer. Walang paikotikot. Its main goal is to unravel the person behind the killings and get him caught by the police.

The novel attests to the fact that the childhood of the person highly affects his or her whole entirety. I’ve been dwelling with this idea since years ago. I am a part of a Church Charismatic group na I deal with the youth. As matter of fact, I am a youth leader. I often have a hard time with the people under me ---problems about relationships and vices. But as I realized that “who they are” is an effect of their background, their childhood, how they were treated as kids, Pakikisama was no longer hard for me.

Just a short background: The youth are from poor to middle class level.
I was an only child for eight long years. Being a brat, mingling with other people, adjusting to situations and adapting to other’s way of lives is very hard for me.

My goal in life is to serve God put him on top of my priorities. But also put in mind to be well balanced. I wanted to be well rounded. I want to have my own career. My second goal is to finish my studies and be successful in the corporate world.

The reasons behind my goals were my past experiences.

As aforementioned, I was a sole daughter for eight years. During that time, I used to have everything I’ve wanted. I was treated as a princess. A spoiled brat, as what everybody called me. I was a naughty, fat little girl.

But my being a brat princess came to an end when I had siblings already. My parents’ attention was diverted to them. But I didn’t take it negatively. Instead, I also diverted my attention to my friends, my hobbies and serving in the church.

Back when I was eleven, I wasn’t fully aware of the bankruptcy that was happening with my father’s business.

In 2000, the bank foreclosed our family house. During this time, all our properties are turning to dust. Came 2004, the only property left was also foreclosed by the bank. By now, we are living at my grandma’s old house. A year ago, it was really devastating. It had no ceiling and the paints of the wall were as old as me. But last summer, my dad’s business was kind flourishing again and we had the chance to renovate the house.

All these things are my driving force to be who and what I am right now. All my past experiences are my weapons in fighting life’s challenges. My weaknesses are not hindrances rather; I use them as inspiration for my betterment. I work on to be the best that I can be.
As a student, I work on to improve my grades. I have five in most of my major subjects. I have to work on with my minors. Nevertheless, I want to be a dean’s lister.

As a woman, I grew up being loved so much that is why even though I was influenced by my peers to have boyfriends, I know my limitations. I believe that sex is only to be given to my future partner. Thus, as a woman this is my main goal. This goal dictates my actions in life.
Being active in the church, I want to be a good example to others that is why in my action, I consider other people. This doesn’t mean that I don’t take risk. I often risk and I know that my service to Jesus is one great risk I did.

As a Filipino, my goal is to be a good citizen and I want to do something that will make my country proud of me.

My story is parallel with Smaller and Smaller Circles. The things that happened to Alex when he was a child became his driving force for revenge. In my case, I am not after revenge, I am after my betterment.

The character which I like best is Joanna. She is a reporter. When I came into Miriam, my first course was Communication Arts. Before I dreamt of being the next Korina Sanchez and being the Anchor of the most popular evening news. But I shifted to Business Ad last 2005. I like Joanna’s style of not being the typical reporter who makes ambush reports. I admire her quest for substantial news. I also admire her courage. Knowing that her dad died covering a news report, if I were in her shoes, I would be having a trauma. I may not engage in the field which caused the death of my dad. Bu in her case, she took the risk of being a reporter. I also admire her quest for the truth. She even helped the Jesuits to unravel the truth.

I believe that Joanna is an empowered woman. She is the epitome of courage. In the real world, it’s scary and we have to take risk and be strong enough to fight the scary reality.
The novel Smaller and smaller Circles, really changed my view of Philippine literature. As I was saying, this is a refreshing one. A change from the usual melodramatic themes which covers poverty and extreme political manipulations in our current system. I didn’t know that Filipinos could write a detective type of novel which includes Jesuits. Something like Da Vinci’s code. But this one, empowering Catholic priests. I am not being biased, but I really liked the story.
The last book that I’ve read was Dave Pelzer’s, The child called It. Actually I have not yet finished the book. I am still on the process of reading it. But the real book which I last finished was Sophie kinsella’s Confessions of Shopaholic.

I really like Sophie Kinsella’s way of writing because she uses the first person point of view. I sort of relate to her characters because I am a Business Administration student. Kinsella gives a little background about finance and the corporate world.

There are a lot of differences between Confessions of a shopaholic and Smaller and Smaller Circles. Aside from the fact that the former is European and the latter is Filipino. They are both realistic but in different genres. Kinsella’s work is more on the light and love story genre rolled into one. Batacan’s work is more of a detective type. But I both liked the plot.

Why I like Smaller and Smaller Circles: First it’s more close to my heart since it’s done by my fellow Filipino. Second, the setting is very familiar to me. Third, I sort of had a connection with the book. Fourth, the words are easy to read. Fifth, the speaking tone was in vernacular language just translated to English. Sixth, it was able to show a little bit of reality - the life of the people in the Payatas area. Last, the novel is very Filipino. Indeed, Filipino writers are to be saluted.

Latest Craze: Top 10 Singles of all time

2007-03-07T19:44:00.000-08:00

10 Im a believer (1966)

Everything I do, I do it for you (1991)

9 Hound Dog, Don't Be Cruel (1956)

8 Diana (1957)

7 I will always love you (1992)

6 Hey Jude (1968)

5 It's now or never (1960)

4 I want to hold your hand (1963)

3 Rock around the clock (1954)

2 White Christmas (1942)

1 Something about the way you look tonight (1997)

According to Russell Ash' book The Top 10 of Everything.

Latest Craze for Graduates and OJT Applicants

2007-03-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

How to pass an interview:

1. Greet Positively

2. Maintain Your Focus

3. Be Positive, sociable and enthusiastic

4. Answer Directly

5. Proper Posture

6. Avoid Being Negative

7. Show your dependability

8. Answer effectively

9. Be discerning

10. Ask some questions

Latest Craze: Looking Skinny, Being Skinny

2007-03-07T19:21:00.000-08:00

It seems that being skinny is in and all the bulges, bay fat, and so called full shapes are no longer on the scene. This is true for some. To name a few foodophobic people are Kate Bosworth, Nicole Richie and Victoria Beckham. In 2002, Kate weighs 125 lbs. Now she's only 97 lbs. Her waist measures 20 inches. A hollywood sitcom actress says taht the reason why Kate won't eat is that Thin is "in" and casting directors do consider your weight when they hire you.

According to some psychologists and food experts " Some people don't realize how skinny they really are, and they see themselves as fat because they can't see reality. On the other hand those who fear getting fat also fear food itself. Some are even scared of aging like Victoria Beckham whose 32 may be trying to compete with younger women. So all I can say is stop STARvation.

Another Craze: Skinny Jeans.
Skinny Pants... If you can't be skinny try to lose skinny. Using the very "in" skinny jeans. These are the tight fitting jeans people nowadays wear. The fashion scene is waving goodbye to flare jeans.

For more info regarding skinny jeans visit this.

For My podcast episode on being skinny visit this.

Learning to appreciate my life.

2007-03-05T20:51:00.000-08:00

Who am I to complain? Who am I?

I have no right...

An old rock range.

2007-03-02T00:54:00.000-08:00

It's tired aura reveals a lot.
ages of watching people passing by
ages of being stuck in some place
which they never wanted to be in
ages of being lifeless, shapeless
in the midst of the living
ages of being solid, inanimate
and sturdy as it seem.
Still, ages of cold nights and intense hot days.
Sometime during summer
not even one may seem to passby.
In Solitude.
Yet with other thousands of inanimate things.
Basic.
Essential.
Even before man came.
A part of God's grand masterpiece.
And even after man came.
Still Basic.
Still Essential.
A part of life's history.
A part of life itself, A part of
the solid ground from which I stand.
Yet taken forgranted.

Had fun with Clairol.

2007-03-02T00:26:00.000-08:00

I had fun trying on my different looks at Clairol's Try it on Studio. So here's what I did.

My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-02-28T20:12:00.001-08:00

I was wondering around... I went to Finella's blog and I found this link to My Heritage. Try Your own too. It's fun and I bet you'll enjoy it.

http://www.myheritage.com

Never mock God!

2007-02-26T20:43:00.000-08:00

Got this article from a friend. Try on!

Here are some men and women who mocked God:

JOHN LENNON: Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said: "Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about that. I am certain. Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, Today we are more famous than Him" (1966).

Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

TANCREDO NEVES (President of Brazil): During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died. CAZUZA (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet): During a show in Canecão ( Rio de Janeiro ), whilst smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said: "God, that's for you."

He died at the age of 32 of AIDS in a horrible manner.

THE MAN WHO BUILT TITANIC: After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said: "Not even God can sink it"

The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic.

MARILYN MONROE: She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her. After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said: "I don't need your Jesus".

A week later, she was found dead in her apartment.

BON SCOTT: The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang: "Don't stop me, I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell".

On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

CAMPINAS/SP IN 2005 In Campinas, Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend. The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter - holding her hand, who was already seated in the car: "MY DAUGHTER, GO WITH GOD AND MAY HE PROTECT YOU." She responded: "ONLY IF HE (GOD) TRAVELS IN THE BOOT, CAUSE INSIDE HERE IT'S ALREADY FULL"

Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died, the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the boot was intact. The police said there was no way the boot could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the boot was a crate of eggs, none were broken..... Boot means trunk.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus. Many have died but only Jesus died and rose again, and he is still alive. JESUS!!!

Superiority Complex.

2007-02-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

Superiority Complex. While I am doing this entry, I don't know if there is such a term as Superiority Complex. I am only aware of the inferiority complex. Actually, I am trying to browse the internet now. I am trying to look if there is such a term. Multitasking... okay, I found one here it is I quote from wikipedia

"Superiority complex refers to a subconscious neurotic
mechanism of compensation developed by the individual as a result of feelings of
inferiority. The term was coined by Alfred Adler (February 7, 1870 – May 28,
1937), as part of his School of Individual Psychology.

Those exhibiting the superiority complex commonly project their feelings onto others they
perceive as inferior to themselves. Accusations of arrogance and cockiness are
often made by others when referring to the individual exhibiting the superiority
complex.

Behaviors related to this mechanism may include an exaggeratedly positive opinion of one’s worth and abilities, unrealistically high expectations in goals and achievements for oneself and others, vanity, extravagant style in dressing (with intention of drawing attention), pride,
sentimentalism and affected exaltation, snobbism, a tendency to discredit
other’s opinions, forcefulness aimed at dominating those considered as weaker or
less important, credulity, and others.

Social aloofness, daydreaming, isolation could also be associated to the Superiority Complex, as a way to evade the fear of failure related to the feelings of inadequacy to face real world.

Superiority and Inferiority Complex are often found together as the different expressions of the same pathology. "

Why am I saying this? Because last night, I faced somebody exhibiting such complex. I am active in our community chapel. I am a member of The Family of God Catholic Charismatic Community. To cut the long story short, Last friday, our choir FOG CHORALE, held the practice at the Choir loft in the chapel. Suddenly this lady which I will just name as Superiora entered and stopped the practice. She was telling the group that we have no right to use the loft because they(OB Youth Choir) hold the exclusive priviledge of holding their practices and using it every mass.

My argument "No one has the exclusive right of using the Choir Loft and everyone has the right to use the chapel as long as what the people will be doing is for God".

Her point 1> No one can use the loft except for them 2>some of the choir members are not Charismatic people (she was assuming that we are pirating members from her group) 3>i forgot.

She was with her choir and her mom. We were with a lot of people including my grandma and my parents.

What I didn't like was that she was so arrogant. She was so convinced with her wrong proposition. Even her members agreed with her twisted argument. Very foul... She was so impertinent. She even said "tarantado" to my dad. She graduated from UP with a degree in Political Science. She is now taking her masters degree. How come? When she doesn't know what diplomacy means? Political Science? When she has wrong ideologies? I am not degrading her. I did not mention her name or whatsoever. I just wish, she knows when to be and what to be.

In this world, we shold not burn bridges instead we should be building linkages. We should know our limitations and we should know how to act depending on the situation.

I am not mad. I just what her to be corrected. How shall I correct her? Am I in the position. She even referred to me as "nito" a thing. I even told her "nito, nito, bagay ba 'to?" (this, this, is this a thing) while pointing my both hads to myself. I was stepped on. I know. I believe.

exaggeratedly positive opinion of one’s worth and abilities
unrealistically high expectations in goals and achievements for oneself and others
vanity
extravagant style in dressing (with intention of drawing attention)
pride
sentimentalism
affected exaltation
snobbism
a tendency to discredit other’s opinions
forcefulness aimed at dominating those considered as weaker or less important
credulity

I hope that someday, she may face somebody who can correct her. I hope that she learn her mistakes. I hope.

I just believe that she reaps what she sow. I hope.

Anna Nicole Smith & Daniel Smith

2007-02-22T20:02:00.000-08:00

Anna Nicole & Daniel Smith

Daniel Smith is Anna Nicole's son. He died last September 10, 2006. I just find it tragic that Anna died five months after her son passed away.

The reason behind Daniel's death? A lethal combination of Zoloft, Lexapro and methadone. Although the forensic expert explained that methadone is used in the treatment of heroin and morphine addiction, he said he had no information to make any conclusion why Daniel was using the drug.

The reason behind Anna Nicole's death. Unknown. But her lawyer said that days before her death she was suffering from flulike symptoms.

Why a sudden death? I don't know. It just reveals that life is so short. We should make the most out of every second. We don't know when our time will come.

Scary Fifteen Revealed.

2007-02-21T19:06:00.000-08:00

What scares men?

Check this out!

You'll probably learn something from this.

1 Public humiliation.
2 Not seeing his kids grow up
3 Tofurky - food
4 Getting naked
5 Beautiful women
6 Living paycheck to paycheck
7 Not being a god to his kids
8 Being a lousy lover
9 Her tears
10 His dad's death
11 Speedos
12 Super Nanny
13 Rejection
14 Getting caught noticing another woman
15 Hair in the drain

For more information visit the article What scares a man?

Love Poem.

2007-02-20T20:14:00.000-08:00

A Young Woman's Poem
When I met him, I like him
When I like him, I love him
When I love him, I let him
When I let him, I lost Him.

A Young Man's Poem
When I saw her, I like her
When I like her, I asked her
When I asked her, She said no
When she said no, I married her
When I married her, after sixty years I still love her.

Despedida.

2007-02-20T18:59:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday, I woke up at around 6am because we were about to go to the province for my grandma's despedida. We were going to have a small party for her before she go to the states. She is an immigrant now. After years of waiting, she got her accepatance letter from the US embassy. I am really glad for her. My grandpa is in the states already waiting for her. They both deserve a break. Not just a break, but a happy retirement. By now, they should be experiencing all the happiness in this world. They've done their part already. They now deserve to be happy and free from all the troubles here.

Okay, back to the despedida. Umingan, Pangasinan (Philippines) is around four to five hours away from Manila. We left Manila at around 7:30 and we arrived at around 12 noon. We ate lunch and the lunch, as usual was very good. Then my uncle announced that the roasted pig (lechon) was done and it's already on the dining table. In a matter of a second everybody - 17 grand children, 6 children and in-laws were feasting around a pig. Good thing, it was the start of the year of the Pig. Just kidding...

Our farm is a 24 hectare land with lots of mango trees because obviously it is a "Manggahan". It's the family business on my mom's side. It is located on top of a hill. We have no neighbor. The next house is about a kilometer away.

At around 2PM,we went down the hill to look for a resort so we can swim and have a little fun. Because we were looking for a cheaper one, we went to the next town which is Lupao, Nueva Ecija. We found a resort, a small one with two swimming pools. One for biggies and one for small kids. There are slides, tall ones. Good for having "real" fun. This resort is not like the ones in Boracay or Subic. But that made our day. We spent the whole afternoon until around 6:45 there. Take note the name of the place is MACARINA. It sounds like the other version of MACARENA.

When we arrived back at grandma's place, we had dinner and we had some bonding time with cousines and friends.

The next day, we woke up early. We went to mass and we went to the wet market to buy food for lunch. The fishes there were fresh and it was nice looking for exotic food to eat.

After lunch, we had some photo shooting session. At around 3pm we went back to Manila. As we were going back to Manila, I watched the movie the wedding singer, but I fell asleep. I told my uncle to just turn off the lcd screen. I really wanted to watch it but I can't resist the call of my neurons to sleep. The end.

UP Fair 2007

2007-02-18T22:51:00.000-08:00

Last year, my friends and I planned to make a list of the things we should do before graduating from College. It's a sort of "to do" list. Included on our list is to be able to go to the University of the Philippines Annual fair. To tell you frankly, I 've been waiting for the day that I will be able to go to their fair. When I was younger, I keep on asking permission from my parents if I could go there. But they always tell me that I can't go. Now that I am twenty, I could do more stuffs. But I hold that freedom with great responsibility.

The fair was from February 12 to February 17. At last, before the last day, my friends and I were able to go there. At first, my expectation of real fun was not met. But it was because we were on the wrong part of the grounds. While walking a long the sunken garden, we found the crowd. The real fun was just about to begin. When it began, we were about to leave. Anyway, we had fun eating street food. When I mean FOOD, we pigged out! Anyway, it was fun and I think it's alright to pig out cause the day after it was Year of the Pig. So Gong Xi Fat Chai in Mandarin, Kung Hei Fat Choi in Fukyen, Maligayang Bagong Taon, in Filipino and Happy New Year in English.

I Blog therefore I am.

2007-02-16T00:44:00.000-08:00

Frankly, I just thought that this line sounds philosophical. Thus, I decided to make it as my blog title. I find it intriguing. I find it nice. Now, after a message from one of my readers, I think it's time to really ponder on my title. What do you think?

...

At Valentine's Day

2007-02-13T02:08:00.000-08:00

I'm just glad to have my heart at Valentine's Day.

I kissed dating goodbye

2007-02-12T19:16:00.000-08:00

People have a BIG problem on Relationships. Parents deal with their kids about this. Some wouldn't want their kids to have love relationships as long as they're in school. Nonetheless, the youth would want to experience TRUE LOVe.

I myself have a problem on this. But the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye helped me a lot. The author have other books to share with people and here are as follows: Boy Meets Girl, Sex is not the Problem (lust Is) , and Stop Dating the Church.

For more information check out this blog and this site.

Inspired.

2007-02-11T20:25:00.000-08:00

Kindly please take time to read.

It may look long but this will help you a lot.

A while ago, I went to a seminar on sexuality. I just want to share my learnings for today.

The speaker, Mr. Ed Sorate pointed out that based on the bible(Genesis 1:27) man and woman are created in the image in likeness of God. Thus, man and woman have specific roles to perform based on how we were created. The man does the Work Role and the woman does the Caring Role. Based on this, he enumerated the Physical, Psychological and Intellectual differences between a man and a woman.

Here are the differences:

Physical

Men

Bigger and Stronger Bones
Coarse Skin
Flat Breast
Square hips and body structure
Sturdy and Heavy movements

Women

Small and Fragile Bones
Fine Skin
Developed Breast
Rounded hips and body structure
Graceful movements

Psychological

Men

Stress on actions and achievements
Undisturbed by trifles
Weakness is discouragement and failure
Passionate
Direct, Blunt and brief
Less patient and less enduring
Gives love to get sex
Wants money and success
Realistic

Women

Stress on what they are
Upset by little things
Weakness is loneliness
Romantic
Indirect, Symbolic, Puzzling
More Patient and preserving
Gives Sex to get love
Wants love and affection
Idealistic

Intellectual

Men

Essential Minded
Rational and Logical
Functional
Less Communicative

Women

Detail Minded
Intuitive
Aesthetic
More Communicative

But in GEnesis 2:24 "Therefore a man leaves his father and his mother and cleaves to his wife, and they become one flesh", It says that in the midst of those difference we were created for PROCREATION (divine)and Communion and expression of love (human).

Sex is pleasure and it is where our freewill plays. Why? Because we are the ones who decide to whom we give it. It is also the greatest experience of love and the door to life.

Sex was even linked to ketchup.

Roles of Ketchup?

adds flavor
not the main thing
hast to be in the proper place otherwise it becomes improprer and dirty

But avove all what is IMPORTANT is this:

LOve and Marriage

Without LOve, it's gonna be RAPE or FORNICATION

Without Marriage, it's gonna be PREMARITAL SEX

The speaker also mentioned the MYTHS about Sex, Love and Relationship

1. "If you love me let's have sex" Should I give it?

Answer: True love RESPECTS, CARES and grows with affection and thinks of the needs of others. If he insists WALK OUT on him. If he loves you he will RESPECT you.

2. All my friends are having sex. Should I?

Answer: It doesn't mean they are. Wait longer than rush and regret it.

PROGRESSION OF SEXUAL INtimacy

So is Sex IN?

It starts with INfatuation

Then INvolvement

Next is INtimacy (starts with a kiss)

Then INtercourse

Afterwhich INanakan (Filipino for being pregnant)

Then INiwan (Filipino for being left)

Then what's next? INabort (going on abortion)

So is it IN?

3. If you really love someone you will sleep with him.

Answer: You're in charge

4. Sex is the most important thing.

Answer: No self esteem is.

5. Sex means instant adulthod.

Answer: Maturity do not depend on it.

6. My BF won't leave me if I have sex with him.

Answer: Sex won't made him yours, A baby can't make him stay.

7. It won't happen to me. I'm too young.

Answer: You are physically capable. Wait do with the right person, right time, right place and right purpose.

8. Sex makes "us" compatible.

Answer: Sex doesn't guaramtee compatibility. 3 out of 10 marriages end inseparation

9. Sex like infatuation grows into love.

Answer: Premarital sex takes away many things.

10. LOve is a feeling.

Answer: Feeling is important it draws us to each other. But it is the decision to love that defines a real relationship.

There are two kinds of relationship: 1. Infatuation, it's more on sexual attraction, feeling, intimacy, and pain. 2. Friendship, it's more of self discovery, rspect, trust, being one's self and inspiration to be better.

Dating is okay as long as you know your limitations and you don't go out of that boundaries.

You don't want to get STD's or AIDS or you don't want to have abortion. At this point in time, people should be physically, emotionally, intellectually, financially and spiritually ready before one gets in to SEX.

For more information on the topic visit this site. You could also visit this blog for more inspirational messages.

WEBSITES

2007-02-07T20:07:00.000-08:00

This semester, I have my web design class. Before I had this subject, I just go to three websites: Friendster, Multiply and Yahoo. (In 2005, I gave up blogging in blogdrive)These are only the websites I frequently visit. I spend my time dealing with only these sites.

Anyway, here's a list of the sites I visit up to date:

Friendster
Multiply
Ning
Blogdrive
Yahoo
Gmail
Googlepage
Blogger
Elggspaces
Login Course
PBWiki
Podomatic
Imood
CBox
MyBloglog

Ha! It's hard to manage remembering all the passwords and usernames I use. I should have just used one for all the sites.

Remember this?

2007-02-06T22:20:00.000-08:00

Remember Pepsi's Advertisement wherein they featured Pink, Beyonce, and Britney? They even used the song "We will rock you". I don't just love that ad I was amazed on how Pepsi really want to beat Coca-Cola. I think the ad is kinda figurative. Why? At the moment or even during the time this ad was aired on TV, Coca-Cola is the reigning softdrink in tinstletown. Right? Maybe it depends on your preference. But my Marketing Management professor, Mr. Charles Cruel (the man behind C2) told us, that for us to know the leading brand, we just look at how much the brand occupies a slot in the grocery. If it has bigger space, there's a big possibility that it's the leading brand. At the end of the ad they even dethroned the sort of "king". So, just view the ad down here and tell me if you think the same.

Latest Craze: Post Valentine Psychosis

2007-02-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

After my literature class, I don't know why thoughts are sudddenly flowing out of my head. I felt the urge to write. So, here it is. The title is Valentine Psychosis. Check it out!

I found a portal in the midst
of my unending search
for the true meaning of life.

This portal allowed me
to go to places i've never been.
Places which I perceive as unreachable
and non-existing.

As i enter,
I found myself in complete happiness.
I saw myself amazed.
I found myself in awe.

The perfection of it's boundless beauty.
The inanimate scenario which tends to surpass
all life's burdens and trials.
Little by little,
I feel serenity.
Serenity which captivates all the aspects of my entirety.

A deep sigh.
A long thinking.
A smile on my face.

I kept on entering from one portal to another.
I kept on going deeper
and deeper in the realms of life.

This portal seems overwhelming.
But in reality
it's just a pure feeling.
Pure emotions.
Infatuation.

Now I stand at the verge of life---
the bridge out of the portal
of temporary insanity. 010107

Angelina SciFi

2007-01-29T21:23:00.000-08:00

Better kind of music.

2007-01-26T05:44:00.000-08:00

Do you have a favorite music? A favorite song? I am a hundred and one percent sure that you've got one? Right? Music is the food of the soul. That's why my dad always tell me that most people are inspired, influenced and driven by the type of music they listen to.

Before, my dad used to be so strict that he even controls what I listen to. There are times when the song is on the top spot on the billboard and I even don't know what that song is. But now, he doesn't need to check out the music that I listen to because he knows that I also have limitations when it comes to the music I listen to.

Why is he that strict over music? He was once addicted to rock music. He got so influenced that he even repeated fourth year highschool at the Ateneo. He got his vices out of listening to those kind of music. I also remember that the man who murdered John Lennon, listened to their music, and the man said he heard a voice telling him to kill Lennon.

My dad researched about Backwardmasking and it's a technique that if you backward mask a song, you'll hear different languages or words being played over it's tune. Not to mention that it sounds like the Devil.

That is why I am so conscious of what I listen to. Now, Papa doesn't have to worry about what I listen to. First, I am already an adult and I know what to listen to. I am critical enough and I don't just take in what I listen to.

Have you heard about the Hillsong? It's a church and it's also a band at the same time. Hillsong is based in Australia and I like their so songs so much. If you have lime wire or other file sharing applications try listening to Hillsong.

Actually they're my favorite band. Since I was a kid I've been listening to their music. Before I used to be shy everytime someone asks me what music I like the most. But now, I realized that their music is better than the other so called "music". Why? Because their songs mean so much to me and to all the people who listen to them.

Their songs are for Jesus and when you hear them, they're not the typical "mass" songs you hear. Their music is not boring and it's up to date. You can relate with their songs because you seem to have a deep relationship for Jesus.

They have this song entitled "Better than Life". Last wednesday at our prayer meeting (yes, i actually attend a prayer gathering every wednesday), our band sang their song and evryone was like partying.

I have the video here, try to play it. At first, you may not like it but as the song goes on and on you'll probably love it the way that I do. I also have a copy of the lyrics so you could follow the song.

"Better Than Life"

Better than the riches of this world
Better than the sound of my friends voices
Better than the biggest dreams of my heart
And that's just the start

Better than getting what I say I need
Better than living the life that I want to
Better than the love that anyone could give
Your Love is

(Chorus)
You hold me now in Your arms,
And never let me go
You oh Lord made the sun shine
And the moon light in the night sky
You give me breath and all your love
I give my heart to you
Because I can't stop falling in love with you
I'll never stop falling in love with you

"Babies2"

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Original

Edited Version

"Baby on a Pan"

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Original Pic

Edited Version1

Edited Version2

"Babies"

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Babies.. to look like magical creation of my own... loving babies so much... not that i like to have one... but they make me feel relaxed especially when I look at their innocence... their smile... just love the purple touch!

Original Pic

My Edited Version1

My Edited Version2

"Friends" in Sepia Tone

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Edited Version in Sepia Tone

Original Version

"GAL"

2007-01-18T22:49:00.000-08:00

I was wondering what to edit for my web design class first photo editing task (through GIMP). I was quite lost. But after a while, the idea just popped out of my mind. Getting a picture from Uncle Rick's blog. Not just that, I really went to visit his blog to seek some advice, help and inspiration on my very first graded edited work. Finally, I "manually" edited the picture. Putting colors... Making it more of a cartoon rather than a sketch, more animate, filling it out. The "gal" comes out of PIXAR's production... just kidding... nope it came from Rosel's land (my sort of didneyland).. my creation.. though an edited one.. still my own.. a work of my imagination...

ArtBlogging

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Last week, I decided to make my artblog here at blogger. So I was trying to include this 'stuff' in my life. But good thing, Mr. Yuviengco, my Web Design Professor coincidentally asked us to open an account here at blogger. It was really a blessing. Now, it's no longer an added stuff in my life. Instead, it is something that is really close to my heart. This is something I love doing. I was really inspired by my uncle Rick's website. He has his own site and his own artblog. So, here I am, trying to be "like" him. That was a joke. I am not trying to be like him, I just want to try out having an art blog. So I come up with this blog.

By now, I am asking permission from my family, friends, colleagues, church mates, and acquaintances, if I could link you guys here at my blog and please do it the same for me.

Why an art blog? Simply because I love art - sketching, oil painting, lettering, etc.

I am from a family of artists. My grand father, Enrico Cortes did some artworks when he was younger. Some of his works are located in our house, some are in my relative's house. Actually, he didn't attempt to sell his works. But, right now, my tita's and tito's are asking for them. He was an interior designer and he has his own antique shop before. But now, my 'lolo papang', being a US citizen, chose to retire in the States with my grandmother and all his children except for my dad.

A little trivia: actually, my dad was left here becasue he was adopted by my Grandfather's sister, Concepcion Cortes, who happened to be the very first antique dealer in the Philippines. By now, many antique dealers flourished from the different parts of the country. Some are actually closely related to my late grandma.

My uncle rick, brother of my dad, used to work for disney. Now, he's a freelance artist. Some of his works include visual effects for Phil of the Future, Tarzan1, Smallville and etc. If you want to know the whole list click here.

Anyhow, I also thought that an artblog doesn't only contain artworks. It may also contain literature stuffs.

Actually, I'm not good at writing but I once heard that the ability to write is something one could learn doing.